Not feeling well tonight, both physically & mentally.

My heart is SOoo heavy as if there's something that blocks my repiratory tract, leaving me suffocated in a small room decked out with just staple dull colors. I know this is me who gets myself confused towards people & work. And yet, as this is wot I am, I usually try to get some reasons - no matter they are weird or not - to justify my acts, so that I can feel comfortable n rejuvenated.

Soon after tonight's activities, I got a totally different experience. Neither my brain nor my body is working well. No action, no thoughts, no feel... helplessly painful. And, that pain comes from nowhere but myself.

No one helps.